How could he turn his back on me and not own up to his mistakes? After all these years, he couldn't tell me that he's sorry! Why did he tell me that he loved me, while he did this to me! Why did he do this to me! How could he keep abusing innocent kids after he knew the pain I went through!  Does he really think its not hurting anyone! Does he think its all fun and games! Does he not have a conscience at all! How dare he treat me this way! How dare he take advantage of someone so innocent! How could I ever trust him ever again! How could I love him ever again! Love your enemies? How could I? I was the cutest little boy with laughter and joy, with so many songs in my heart! How could he beat this right out of me? How could he 'kill' me, over and over again, the very innocence of me? I loved him and he took advantage of me! How could he not care about me! How could he put his evil 'desires' inside of me, how could he twist my heart, mind and soul for his pleasure! An innocent little 6 year old! I was only trying to give him what he wanted!!!  Because I loved him!!!

I hate him! I hate him! I HATE HIM!!! I want him dead! I want to kill him! I am going to kill him! I am going to stop him! How dare he take away my joyful life! How dare he ask me to help him achieve the desires of his wicked heart! I want my life back! Why did I give up my life for him! Why didn't I tell on him! I WANT HIM DEAD!

The above are words from my first chapter 'Forgiving the Unforgivable' (which is now complete). To HELP! PREVENT sexual-child-abuse with me, PLEASE! click HERE.